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ok i know it's shocking but i'm gonna confessed to something in this post....... I KNOW. SHOCKING but it had to be done and i dun want to go into a new year lying to ppl. ok, recently i been to an outing done by someone i know and i met this girl who i was shocked to see ( honestly ). During the outing, i talked with her for a bit and kind of find out that there was more to her than i have initally expected, which i find shocking ( yes. i'm gonna use the word " shocking " a lot in this post ). she was quite fun to talk to and i actually liked talking to her ( yesyes, shocked. LoLz hahaz ) so after the outing, i was able to talk to her on msn ( she added me lolz ) and we chatted for the next few days ( I KNOW. SHOCKING ). then came another outing, where i was allowed to bring someone ( i treaten the organiser by saying i want to bring someone if not i'm not going ) so i sat at home thinking " who should i bring? hmm.... " when she msn-ed me so i thought "hmm.. i could ask her" and i did ( I KNOW. SHOCKING!! ). and she said yes ( I KNOW. EVEN MORE SHOCKING!!! ). Then i was asked by someone if i am interested in her ( if your reading. "Thanks" for telling Your Best friend and your Girlfriend about it -.-" but i dun blame/hate u because i do that to u sometime soooooooooooo it's okkkkkkk ^.^ ). anyways i replyed yes ( for some reason that i dunno why, i didn't lie? ) but of course i didn't tell her because i was just getting to know her and it might just be my curiosity in her that made me find her interesting. anyways during the outing, she came and we talked more ( BTW if your reading, i "LOVE" that u dun even hide the fact that u know that i am interested in her , hahaz ) and i was getting more interested in knowing her on a personal level so i actually wanted to walk her home , hoping to get some alone time with her but as usual someone joined me in walking her home and i'm hitting myself in the head because what i did when i was gonna suggest to her that i can walk her home was what made him joined us. The situation then was like this, i was asking her where she live and she was telling me that she lived very close to where we are at and in my mind i was like " YES " then i said "isn't it dangerous to walk home alone at this time?" to which she replies " ya but i'm used to it. " and in my mind i was like "SWEEEEEETTTTTTTT~~~" then i did the stupidest thing ( because i thought if i just said " i could send u home if u want " would scare her off ), i said to her " well u could ask anyone here to bring u home " and i swear that she was about reply something before someone else who was sitting at the same table wif us said " what did u say? " and i did the second most stupidest thing by repeating my statement ( thinking that he would not agree to it, I KNOW. I'm Stupid ) then he said " well , i could do that, i got no curfew. " and in my head i was like " ***************************************************************************, why the **** did i say that? ". In the end, we both walked her home and i think my plan backfired in 2 ways, 1. i didn't get alone time. 2. i think she was scared of me after that. So as i was walking home, i was thinking " **** it, i screwed up my chance " and i swear to god after that incident , i have given up on any hopes of chasing her. After that incident, i just treated her like a normal friend. anyways now i just treat her as a normal friend because i dun think she will be interested in me anyways and because i think she's interested in someone else so i given up and no I'M NOT HEARTBROKEN because it never did start in the first place. Soooooooooo, dun tell me " I'm so sorry for your loss " or " there will another one " because i dun nid it. So. to everyone who has been questioning about it, here's my answer to u and i swear to god that everything i wrote is true and if i mention about u in this post, i dun blame or hate u and if your that girl i mentioning about, dun worry i treat u like a normal friend now.

soooooooo i hope this confession helps answer all your question. If u feel offended or u got any questions. Msn-ed or sms me, i will answer all of your question.


till next time, XOXO
The Retarded One

Hahaz new skin picked by ian chow so if u dun like.... complain to him hahaz XD. been busy recently.... work work WORKING!!! at my mum store and Black canyon coffee. so hardly got time to post.

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hahaz XD a full page of posting cut down to 8 sentences XDXD. Details will be done on a later time

Is it just me or does the world feel empty now? I mean before the O level, we were all preparing for that day and we all know eventually it will come and we will have to face it. But on the day of the first paper, it didn't feel real to me... it felt like i'm dreaming because i never thought that the actual day would arrived. That day when i woke up, i was like " It's finally here...". i literally have to pinch myself to realise that it wasn't a dream and everything that i have been working for ends today. It was a scary thought... Then after the O levels, it still didn't felt real to me. The moment that the last paper ended i was like, " Hmph... It's over? ". After that a few days, it finally hit me " it's over " and i no longer have to study for my O levels... Then suddenly, i felt empty, like something was gone and i can't explain it. I guess i never thought that the day would come when i dun have to study for my O levels. It's such a weird feeling... when u are preparing for something, u hate it and u want it to be over ASAP but when it's over, suddenly the pressure has been lifted and u feel lighter and a sense of emptiness hits u... Hahaz... now i wonder if the friendships made during my secondary school years will endured the test of time... hopefully it will but with all the things that happen this year... i highly doubt it but all u can do is hope for the best and be optimistic about the future.... ^^

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hahaz been working the past 2 days at my mum store. hell sia, some of the customers are damn rude la and i still have to smile to damn. but on the bright side, there got a lot of cute girls, dunno why? hahaz. and they keep giggling when they see me lolz. Did i forget to zip my pants or something? which is impossible because my pants dun have zips lol. dunno la but i finding another job tml , hopefully i get it XD because the pay is damn good! Dunno lol but going interview alone very scary sia, not even sure if ian going wif me anot lol >.<" dunno la hope for the best :D . hahaz super tired!!! worked so hard for the past 2 days. Tml like a break for me sia XD. will write what happens tml for now i'm signing off. Tata.

XOXO

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It's OVER. The overly hyped O levels!!! It was not as bad as all of us thought it would be. It was fairly easy, hope i can get good grades XD. Anyways, it's after the o level and i'm hoping to get a job, other then working at my mum's place. I found this awesome job offering that i REALLY wanted to get, first i have to convince my mum. The pay is $1400-$4800 a month!!! LIKE OMG!!! i really really want that job so i got to convince my mum now which is probably the hardest part. Once i convince my mum, it would most likely be easier because my mum doesn't want me to work until i'm like 23? LOL. Anyways it feels weird after the O levels, it's like something is gone in my life which i dun understand why? hahaz but whatever i'm PARTYING like mad now. Seriously i think what my siblings said about me is true, i will be a clubber once i reached 18 hahaz XD so anyone who wants to go clubbing after we are all 18.... call me!!! XDXD. Currently, i'm in love with the singer called PIXIE LOTT, seriously her songs are addictive and she's HOT like OMG. hahaz.. and i like russian roulette by RIHANNA. i'm also planning on taking a lot of photos during the holidays, trying to improve on my photography... been taking a lot of background shots but i really want to try doing a real photoshoot, i want to do a beauty shoot which is like a face shoot. wif angelic makeup and white background.... the only thing is... I DUN HAV A MODEL!!!! Like this is crap... i already have the idea and concept but i dun have a model T.T. Haiz... no choice.. i guess i will have to work with what i got and take a good artsy shoot with random object that i can find... LOOKING FOR MODELS, NO PAY and TAKES OUT A PORTION OF YOUR TIME BUT U GET TO HAVE FUN!!!! LOLZ!!! hahaz... looking forward to the holidays because my mum promised me i get at least 2 overseas trip this time round and i really want to go to AUSTRALIA. It's such a beautiful country with amazing landmark and culture plus there are lots of beautiful people there LOL. i wonder how this holidays is gonna end up, i got so much time on my hands... i most certainly not gonna waste it, who knows? maybe i will find myself a lover? LOL hahaz but i am certain that i will be going out a lot. Hahaz... wow i'm like writing a lot on this post... which i think will pleased a lot of u since i'm like not consistant with my post so be glad that i'm writing!!! LOL i know i said that i'm not gonna speak about the drama anymore but i just want to say that i'm excited to see what's gonna happen during the holidays... would new relationships form? or would they just leave it as a mystery which will never be answer? ahh... the age-old question " should i or should i not? ". It would be entertaining to see what u picked *wink*wink* , remember... i will be watching ^^. i hate to say it but it's true, in the current situation... i know what u know and i know what u dun know. so it sucks that i can't say much about the situation but at the same time, knowing all this things gives me an advantage because i can prepare myself to comfort anyone who got injured through this process so u can say that i'm stocking up on first aid kits for the coming battle. Playing back World Of Warcraft... anyone playing inform me plz ^^ so can play together. The more the merrier. Lalala... i typed so much that i'm beginning to feel like my mum, i feel like i'm nagging instead of writing lolz but in some ways i feel more liberated because i get to release all my hyper-ness but i think i should stop here before my blog gets flooded with this post!!! hahaz ok i'm signing off now, here's hoping that everyone has a great holiday

Labels: AFTER THE O LEVELS

curse me for having a weak stomach! not getting any better , thanks to all the drama ( spending too much time thinking ). i will stick to my word and not about anything that is going on in class but it's getting really ridiculous, apparently they really dun know me, like WOW after 2 years but W/E. Got crappy result for prelim so i'm kinda glad i got this break to study harder but it's hard to focus when the result keeps popping into your head , hahaz but TY pei ying for informing me about my results. i know what i need to work on... time management because i didn't finish my maths or science paper which kinda explain my crappy result....wait... I'M GIVING EXCUSES!!!! NONONO!!! i need to go study more... starting with chem ^.^ which i LOVE (trying to convince myself...work with me ^.^) i shall study after vomitting which i'm gonna do now.... till next time ^.^

Kayuki.

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