.Monday, December 28, 2009@2:30 AM.
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if your gonna read this, read all of it, otherwise **** off
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ok i know it's shocking but i'm gonna confessed to something in this post....... I KNOW. SHOCKING but it had to be done and i dun want to go into a new year lying to ppl. ok, recently i been to an outing done by someone i know and i met this girl who i was shocked to see ( honestly ). During the outing, i talked with her for a bit and kind of find out that there was more to her than i have initally expected, which i find shocking ( yes. i'm gonna use the word " shocking " a lot in this post ). she was quite fun to talk to and i actually liked talking to her ( yesyes, shocked. LoLz hahaz ) so after the outing, i was able to talk to her on msn ( she added me lolz ) and we chatted for the next few days ( I KNOW. SHOCKING ). then came another outing, where i was allowed to bring someone ( i treaten the organiser by saying i want to bring someone if not i'm not going ) so i sat at home thinking " who should i bring? hmm.... " when she msn-ed me so i thought "hmm.. i could ask her" and i did ( I KNOW. SHOCKING!! ). and she said yes ( I KNOW. EVEN MORE SHOCKING!!! ). Then i was asked by someone if i am interested in her ( if your reading. "Thanks" for telling Your Best friend and your Girlfriend about it -.-" but i dun blame/hate u because i do that to u sometime soooooooooooo it's okkkkkkk ^.^ ). anyways i replyed yes ( for some reason that i dunno why, i didn't lie? ) but of course i didn't tell her because i was just getting to know her and it might just be my curiosity in her that made me find her interesting. anyways during the outing, she came and we talked more ( BTW if your reading, i "LOVE" that u dun even hide the fact that u know that i am interested in her , hahaz ) and i was getting more interested in knowing her on a personal level so i actually wanted to walk her home , hoping to get some alone time with her but as usual someone joined me in walking her home and i'm hitting myself in the head because what i did when i was gonna suggest to her that i can walk her home was what made him joined us. The situation then was like this, i was asking her where she live and she was telling me that she lived very close to where we are at and in my mind i was like " YES " then i said "isn't it dangerous to walk home alone at this time?" to which she replies " ya but i'm used to it. " and in my mind i was like "SWEEEEEETTTTTTTT~~~" then i did the stupidest thing ( because i thought if i just said " i could send u home if u want " would scare her off ), i said to her " well u could ask anyone here to bring u home " and i swear that she was about reply something before someone else who was sitting at the same table wif us said " what did u say? " and i did the second most stupidest thing by repeating my statement ( thinking that he would not agree to it, I KNOW. I'm Stupid ) then he said " well , i could do that, i got no curfew. " and in my head i was like " ***************************************************************************, why the **** did i say that? ". In the end, we both walked her home and i think my plan backfired in 2 ways, 1. i didn't get alone time. 2. i think she was scared of me after that. So as i was walking home, i was thinking " **** it, i screwed up my chance " and i swear to god after that incident , i have given up on any hopes of chasing her. After that incident, i just treated her like a normal friend. anyways now i just treat her as a normal friend because i dun think she will be interested in me anyways and because i think she's interested in someone else so i given up and no I'M NOT HEARTBROKEN because it never did start in the first place. Soooooooooo, dun tell me " I'm so sorry for your loss " or " there will another one " because i dun nid it. So. to everyone who has been questioning about it, here's my answer to u and i swear to god that everything i wrote is true and if i mention about u in this post, i dun blame or hate u and if your that girl i mentioning about, dun worry i treat u like a normal friend now.
soooooooo i hope this confession helps answer all your question. If u feel offended or u got any questions. Msn-ed or sms me, i will answer all of your question.
till next time, XOXO
The Retarded One
